I’m thinking of the SNL skit where Molly Shannon is acting drunk and yelling “I’m Fifty!” We’ll I’m not fifty today but age doesn’t really matter these days anyway. I feel as though I’ve lived a lifetime or two. As my wife and I were praying with my kids last night, I was overwhelmed with emotion. It had been an extremely hard day and I sat there looking into the eyes of my beautiful 5 year old princess thinking just how fast time is flying by. [Cue Lionel Richie in the background]
It was just the other day when I remember holding little Molly in that Las Vegas hospital room in awe of the beauty that I had just witnessed. Now I’m 30 with 3 kids and a family to support and constantly fighting for my faith and for The Father to rescue and provide for us.
I’ve been working a ton on the Hungry for Love Tour that features The Afters, Leeland, and Sanctus Real and during the show one of the things that has really been speaking to me is during Leeland’s set. Leeland talks about the Kingdom and how our lives are like the grass of the field and I feel that, no more than in these moments, looking at my life.
You see, I love my kids and my family more than anyone has ever loved a family in the history of families being loved, and all I want to do is be where The Father wants me to be, doing what He wants me to be doing.
While struggling to reject the messages of insignificance, my beautiful wife gently reminds me that I am a child of The King and that is where my worth comes from.
Not from those who judge quickly and refuse to know my heart, or those who simply want to live a life of what have you done for me lately.
Rather, the truth is that I am the Beloved, and full of beautiful things that The Father has intended for only me.
And even though there are many in my industry who refuse to acknowledge that, I have a family who sees it more clearly than anyone!
I will rest in that today and be grateful for the blessings I see and even the ones I don’t.
Today, is my birthday.
Thank you, Lord, for another year!